When there’s nothing to say
When there’s nothing to say
Still I put pen to paper
awaiting my stroke of genius
And in this act it seems nothing is
discovered. But something is there
that will live beyond me.
Riding high along a bluff, the weather breaks when it’s not supposed to. We have food for a few more days, along our widest stretch beyond civilization. A bead of sweat wiped from my brow. I pull the camera to my eye and snap a pic, hoping it turns out. A bear is walking along the bluff, with my wheels, and for a minute I am fearful before I have the time to settle in and read the creature’s energy. We are together on the same adventure.
My body still aching in the delightful way from sleep, I am on foot. The showerhead recently shut off and raincoat I wear is a safety measure. Walking through the dark—past Fishbowl and sundog—I think how if this were summer the light would already be here. I realize I forgot to take my little gay pill. Lately, I’ve been focusing on the heart, to open it and to lead with it. I hope I continue to learn and grow, try new things, meet new people, be inspired to record my days. To be challenged in healthy life-affirming ways.
Things I want to do when the heart is open:
Try a boxing class
Go to more Barry’s classes
Talk on the phone to my friends about the things they love and are passionate about
Print and send issue № 3 of Found You Magazine
Move to London
Spend the entire summer on a bike. Go on another multi-week ride.
Create just for fun. Do not second guess or attempt to perfect.
Visit friends across Europe
Visit Berlin
Work in London’s publication industry
Interview my friends